A Lilith Profile
Recently, I met an astrologer with Neptune in Scorpio precisely on the Midheaven (Aug. 24, 1968, 6:22 PM, Redding, CA). I asked her if she’s an antenna for Neptunian power plays, and we talked about her 8th house South Node and what the 2nd house North Node is asking her to do.
All of us are conditioned in early life, and therefore much of what we have to heal & release typically involves what we learned from our families, whether spoken outwardly in the environments of our youth or not. She told me about the dynamics in her home growing up, mostly in terms of the differing levels of support for each of the children in the family, the attitudes their parents had about each of them that carry through to the present. And it sounded a little like something beyond an 8th house Libra South Node might be at work, though there were plenty of 8th house-related power plays and dark Libran issues of relationship imbalances and buried resentment.
Something in the story told me she’d been singled out in her family system for some reason that no one understood or had any idea how to talk about, so I looked up her true Black Moon Lilith (BML), which is opposite that Neptune, precisely on the Taurus IC.
Adding Lilith to the discussion helped contextualize her experience. Lilith in a person’s chart tells us many things, but the first is what part of the person is judged by others to be dangerous, and is therefore (according to others) in need of editing or suppressing. Lilith is a wild, instinctive influence in us and doesn’t want to be corralled, edited or reshaped. Yet we might give in to this pressure because, especially when we’re young, our survival might be threatened if we were to be thrown out of the group.
Not every situation is really that dramatic, of course, but many of us are carrying emotional memories from past lives in which we didn’t survive precisely because we didn’t yield to the mandates of the groups of which we were members. And when we’re young and our families are most of our world, it can certainly seem that survival is at stake.
Her true BML is in Taurus on the IC, the beginning of the 4th house, the house of family, heritage, roots and a person’s most private self. My acquaintance seems viewed by her family as Lilith, dangerous and in need of editing or suppressing. Her natural sense of establishing a value-based approach to life (Taurus) seems dangerous to them, and gets her into trouble with them. If she’s honest with herself about where she’s rooted (4th house), and what’s truly going on inside (4th house again), she’ll find Lilith there. And even if she doesn’t, others will still see the energy in her.
With Lilith on the IC or in the 4th house, it’s also true that our family of origin (or those who raised us, whether blood relatives or not) carries Lilith’s story. Her family has, likely for many generations, experienced at least some aspects of Lilith’s story. The censure from the greater society that any family would receive for representing Lilith will be distilled into rules and directives centered on how not to draw negative attention or punishment for being in some way wild and outside the reach of a community’s or society’s censuring arm, and will then be passed down through the generations framed as information necessary for survival.
The underlying energy of such inheritance can feel/seem like this: People, we can’t afford to have anyone around here acting out of bounds. Get in line, stop complaining and get with the group program. There’s a reason for everything, and just trust that it’s for your own good.
And then you have my acquaintance, who appears as Lilith to them, threatening to start leaking uncomfortable truths that seem to threaten the stability of the family system (Taurus/4th) at any moment. Even if she never spoke truths that made them uncomfortable, she would, to them, always seem on the verge of potentially doing so. And so they do everything they can to make her feel like she shouldn’t express herself - of course they do! They’re afraid of the potential repercussions, the kind they carry emotional memories of from the karmic past (past lives).
She’s got a karmic role in her family system as someone volunteering to speak uncomfortable truths, and exploring how to develop and stick with her own value system in a filial climate that doesn’t want what she’s bringing, that’s afraid of it. A big challenge for her is to honor her own needs while not cutting herself off from her family.
Much of her healing related to Lilith involves accepting that the ways that they have treated her are reflections not of her actual value or worth as a person (Taurus/4th house), but of their fear of having the status quo of the family disturbed by uncomfortable truths (also Taurus/4th house). As she lives the story of Lilith, she can change the entire dynamic by honoring who she deeply knows she is above all the feedback from others that might be hurtful.
And in case you didn’t see this coming, this echoes and underscores the symbolism of her Aries 2nd house North Node, where she’s asking herself to learn to bravely assert and directly live (Aries) a life based in her own value system (2nd house), which will result for her in a new level of self-esteem (2nd house), putting her love for herself before the judgments/esteem of others (Libra/8th house South Node).
Tom is available for private evolutionary astrology & intuitive counseling sessions. See his website for more information, and to pre-order on his new True Black Moon Lilith natal report, available in late May.
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