Transit Lab: Mercury Retro Stationing on Mars-Uranus
This is on my Mars-Uranus in the 1st, as I mentioned in a recent post. The station is on the midpoint, and is square my nodes. I’ve found myself in a situation in which the only soluton for me is to assert my independence and leave (Mars-Uranus/1st), and stop sticking around in a group in order to “raise the vibration” of those less experienced than me (the pull to Cancer/10th house South Node).
It’s been difficult to sort through the layers of competing desires and perceived needs, but with Merc retro I knew that sitting down and being quiet, and jotting things out in my journal would help with some clarity. During these retro periods, there always exists a new door to understanding and clarity open to those willing to be a little more patient than usual, and to slow down and look at things differently.
I know that when anyone is more skilled or has a deeper understanding of something, there is the opportunity to help others. And yet in this situation, it became clear to me that the greatest use of my energy is in using it in the way that speaks to me the loudest. I was entertaining going back to this group and today I just really, truly, actially get it: Mars-Uranus in the 1st has to be listened to.
As you might expect from this combo, there’ve been some strong reactions along the way. I reacted harshly to the reality of not being heard - my Venus-Pluto in Libra/12th has a great investment in fairness, that the Mars-Uranus in Libra/1st can come to react against when push feels like it’s coming to shove. In short, some folks have decided who I am and what I’m about, and are unable to hear me as I am. As a consequence, it’s become impossible to communicate with them in the present - they parrot their incorrect versions of my position back to me repeatedly as a defensive measure because they’ve decided I’m not listening (though I’ve acknowledged and supported their position repeatedly), and it’s come to be too much for me to be willing to persist in dealing with.
I’m just sitting here with my journal open in front of me, just jotting away like crazy to get to the core of the issue. Wish me luck.
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November 1, 2007 By Tom Jacobs
November 3rd, 2007 at 3:54 pm
I wish you luck.
Hazel.