Transit Lab: Uranus Square Saturn (Outer Events Show You Inner Realities)
Last night I stopped in my tracks after my roommate removed the drywall from the bathroom. I realized that she’s Uranus-squaring her own house’s Saturn, and I saw that there’s an outer reality thing that’s showing me some inner reality stuff.
The first thing catching my attention was my noting that most of the renovations she’s doing to her property have to do with water. A large koi pond is going to replace the guest house we tore down over the last week, and the bathroom’s being totally redone. Sure, I thought, retooling some emotional focus and expression is part of my job these days.
But then my part in this work came home: Our arrangement for my staying there involves work on these projects. I’m getting that the more I tear down with my hands old structures on her property that are outmoded, unpermitted or in need of upgrade, the more opportunities I have to see and spend time with my inner parallels to the work, and tear some things down and let others be torn down.
She warned me when I agreed to move there that it’s chaos, and I told her that I’ve been inviting it in (since it’s been knocking so pesistently and loudly). I told myself I’d do what I could to relax into it, in an effort to make space for Uranus squaring my Saturn to do its work.
Now, living in a Uranian-square space and not being able to uphold your Saturnian status quo can inspire a fair amount, or universes, of resistance. A few days last week saw me negotiating that resistance in trying to figure out what I was going to eat (my normal food sources, including the raw grocery, is 20 miles away and I haven’t been since I moved). What am I supposed to put in my food hole in this transition? I haven’t known, and so have been improvising, losing my rules. The result does include, to be fair, some choices that six months ago I would have run from, but the whole having rules thing seems not to be working.
I thought I would dread carrying rubble to the street. I did it for an hour this morning, and it was kind of fun. Kind of comforting - removing the pieces of the things that no longer work and need to go. Until tomorrow there’s a rental dumpster thing in front of the house that contains all the debris. Part of this morning’s work involved hauling debris in a big plastic planter as a bucket and dumping it over the side. I dropped it in a few times and had to scale the side and get in to retrieve it, and there was something entirely cool about seeing all that rubble in there, climbling back out and knowing it’s being haued away tomorrow.
Also, I realize that my roommate’s orientation to the chaos is useful for me. I’m learning to see it as what’s on the menu, what’s happening right now. She’s helping me keep an eye on the expected results, at least the general kind of results that can be expected. Holding a vision of possibilities that open as a result of my stepping into this transition is steadying. In other words, I can override the Saturnian resistance to change by remembering the new structures coming in going to reflect the needs and features of the present, something Saturn in its focus on the past and familiarity isn’t usually on board with.
So, there’s another installment of Uranus square Saturn. I hope that you’re helped in looking at your own outer planet transits the deeper I’m able to go into and explain mine. Outer planet transits in their slowness offer the opportunity to build great significance over time, and the changes in your life will be happening on many levels. Giving yourself time and awareness to get into the changes they invite on all levels is a big part of living more consciously.
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August 9, 2007 By Tom Jacobs