Mercury Retrograde in Cancer: Things Explode
By Tom Jacobs
Ah, the 4th of July. The time when yahoos all over the land head out to the streets to set off fireworks to express their nationalistic fervor. Could you ever doubt that the US has a Cancer Sun?! I think of the movie “V” - we think conditioning has everything to do with Saturn, but check out the Moon’s role in it as well if you want to get a clearer picture.
Neighbors of mine are exploding explosive devices. Fitting with the theme of these posts, revisiting emotional conditioning and seeing things in a new light, I admit that in movies I love to see things blow up. Sometimes I go to a movie specifically because it promises a wealth of huge explosions. But in front of my house, the sounds of exploding things terrifies a part of me. Even though I know it’s just the healthy sound of patriotism (or something), a part of me is still afraid that “they” are coming for me, and rockets and bombs are par for the course.
Just what “happened” in what I presume was “another” “life” “of mine,” I don’t know. I don’t know if I frequented far-off bunkers or stuck it out in muddy trenches. It doesn’t matter. What does matter is that I can choose to chill out about what’s actually happening now.
Spending all this time working on Cancerian memories naturally brings up what I’ve called here my individuation imperative, Uranus in the 1st squaring the Cancerian South Node. (Okay, he gasps, the volleys are getting closer. Breathe. Breathe deeply…) This part of me wants to go out and shake these degenerates by their lapels and take away their lethal toys. I don’t know if that’s the best solution, so I’ll just sit here and watch this part of me re-experience its utter terror. Uranus in Libra in the 1st as a marker of extreme physical trauma, right? [Pause.] There, that’s not so bad, is it? It’s just a little terror, some bone-shaking fear of personal apocalypse…
The other thing is that my MC is 14 Cancer, making me more aware of what I’m doing with my life when Independence Day comes around. And my feelings about this country and what happens here, how it’s run (which you won’t find me commenting on much anywhere). And with my SN at 18 Cancer in the 10th, - um, expletive smorgasbord, an arsenal was just opened up out there. I have no idea how that last sentence was supposed to end.
But with the MC reflection, currently I’m in a phase of writing, getting a lot of stuff onto paper that’s been floating around in my mind and notebook for years. Some of it is writing about these conditioning issues, which fits with Cancerian energy. And Jupiter’s transiting my Moon-Mercury in Sagittarius, Mercury’s retrograding opposite my Jupiter in Capricorn in the 3rd, Pluto’s in my 3rd, and my progressed Mercury recently re-entered Sagittarius after an entirely depressing retrograde back into Scorpio, during which I collected and meticulously noted all of your secrets in a series of black notebooks. Sorry people, but your secrets get tiring and this shift was entirely welcome.
At least no one’s screaming or wailing out there, right? That’s a sure-fire indication that now is now, and not some “other” “life” “of mine,” no pun intended.
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July 4, 2007 By Tom Jacobs